Hey Beautifuls, Okay so this weekend I went to my bf's bball tournament (they got third by the way) and my mom told me i had to be home at nine unless i called her and told her different. So it was about 8:30 and i calledher and said it was half time in the champiionships and that after the game we would get dinner and then come home. But actually i was home at like three and i called her so i couldstay till about 11-11:30 and so it was all goin good until Bill and Cindy got into a fight and have decided to get a divorce.( Bill was the one who was gonna take me home.) so he left and said he would be back after a while and so i figured hed be back at 11- 11:30 and i would be home by twelve. OOOH NOOOO! He never came back so at 2:30 i finally just told andrew to take me home cuz hes 16. So he did and i went home thinking that it was all gonna be good.So i woke up didn't get into triouble at all until Scott( my stupid over controling hipocritical step dad) and my mom was fine until my step thing got home and then she started getting mad about it.So any ways my step thing totally blew it out of porportion and went on one of his little rampages and told me i couldn't see him any more. And my mom ws all like" HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT HAVIN SEX"!!!!! And when TheY said that my heart like totally fell into a black hole.I could not imagine living life without Andrew. I am so fucking pissed at my parents .I CAN'T BELIEVE MY MOM ACTUALLY CALLED ME THAT. MY STEP DAD HAS CALLED ME IT BEFORE BUT I WOULD NEVER HAVE THOUGHT UN MY WILDEST DERAMS THAT MY MOM WOULD TURN ON ME LIKE THAT AND TELL ME I WAS HAVIN SEX!!!! They don't undestand that Andrew is the only thing thats even keepin me on goin.That even gets me through my everday shitty life. And if they take him away, then there is no reason to even live.I love andrew with all my heart and i don' t ever want to lose him, i would like do anything possible to see him, or even talk to him.I am prolly just gonna go home and like kill myself if I don't get to see my Sugar! hehehe! Thats my cute litle pet name for him. He calls me Baby.I am gonna go becuz impretty much already balling my eyes out cuz i don't get to talk to him.My parents even take in all the phones into there room just so i can't talk to him after they go to bed.They turn the computers off so i won't talk to him on MSN. So........ yes......... my life is like the tragedy romance of romeo and Juliet, except its Andrew and Jessica and im pretty much skipping all of the envelope mix up and the potion im prolly just gonna kill myself to start it all off. And then maybe Andrew wil kill himself and then we can be in heaven together and never have to worry about parents and regulations and rules.I just want to see my SUGAR!!!!!!!!! Okay im reallly cryin now so im gonna go get a tissue ......................................................... xoxo Jessica xoxo

Hey Beautifuls, Ok, i have a question for all the bloggers. What do u do when u wake up everyday dreading to go to school , becuz u know that when u get there all the people who say they are your friends are actually gonna talk shit about you, tell your boyfrienjd shit so he willbreak up with you, say shit about you when your righ there, knowing that ur listening.They always talk about me and i sent them a letter telling them that i was sorry for whatever i did and so they email me back saying" oh what the shit , you know exactly what you did, so don't even say sorry cuz u are always makin us feel bad and ur always starting the fights and ur the source of most of our drama." And i don't even know what i did to them, cuz they are sayin how i was sooooo bad, and im such a BITCH!!!! But watever. What should i do? I am so sick and tired of Palmer. Everyone is bein gay. I actualy thought that everyone was gonna start bein nice but i guess i was wrong.For example: I am singing a solo at the winter concert and i was practicing in chorus, and I started singing, and the girls were like" OMG, shes really good at singing and so i hesitantly said THANX, and then i went home and called my boyfriend like usual. And well this is where it all starts, we were all good until he started sayin that my so called friends told him on msn that i cheated on him with dustin er justin er alan idik what name they used but anyways, and i guess we got itno it in the back of his car. YEAH! OMG RIGHT? And so i flipped. I am so sick of all the girls in my class and i can't wait until next year, cuz i possibly get to go to a different school, but idk, it all depends on if my year sux, or not. But yea, I am just really lookin for someone to talk to and if anyone can help me just let me know. I know i prolly just sound like some stupipd teenager who is all like" OMG MYLIFE SUX, THE WHOLE WORLD IS OUT TO GET ME! But im not tryin to sound like that, i just want my old life back, where i actually had friends who liked me, and i actually liked Palmer and got along with everyone and everything. I wish i had the perfect life. 10 things that would make my life perfect would prolly have to be. 1. True friends who can help me through all of my problems and we would always be happy with each other and we could make the most out of everything. 2. I would have the coolest mom, who let me stay out late but not to late cuz i want her to care but i don't want her to like transform me into a nun er..........something like that. 3.A perfect bf( well actually he is already all except the whole jealous thing) who treated me like a lady and never got jealous, and was always a gentlemmen. 4. To have the happiest family. We would always have a good time together and we would go to movies and play bored games and eat supper at the table. 5. The pefect dad, who actually tries to contact us becuz he wants to , not becuz he sends us money to make himself feel better. ( He has actually been in prison for the past five years, and he is out know but the only time he even came over was like 3 weeks after he got out of prison, and he only stayed for 30 mins. 6. I would have the coolest clothes, and i would totally be accesorized. I would always have the newest fashion, and the coolest shoes, MY FAVORITE BRAND OF SHOES ARE CONVERSE ALL STARS!!!!!!! 7.no one would talk about anyone else and we would all get along an no ones feelings would get hurt becuz of people who are talkin about them. 8.My family would actuallly want to do stuff with me and not like ignore me for a stupid computer game. 9.I had the coolest sister who wants to go to the mall with me, go shopping , eat fruit snacks and just be plane stupid together. 10.I WISH I HAD TH PERFETC LIFE! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IDK!!!! I am just gonna go before i like start cryin er............something well Bye Beautifuls!! xoxo Jessica xoxo

My friend Antoneea, say it with me an-ta-nee-a. Says hi. She doesn't have her own blog so she can;t say it to you so i am gonna say it for her.So yea she says WASSSSSSSSSSUP! hehehe xoxo Jessica xoxo

NOT REALLY! I just thought that if I made a REALY DRAMATIC title u guys would actually read it. So yea i have been really aviun the greatest time with my bf. I LOVE him to death. We do fight about stuff but its over stupid stuff. I hate it whenn he is mad at me tho, cuz hes the only persin that really understands me and that can make me feel better no matter what mood im in.So anyways me and my bf are always fighting tho, thats like the one thing thats wrecking our relationship.He gets SUPER over jealous. We are perfect except when we get mad at each other. But watev, its all over the next day anyways so yea, It sucks but, i LOVE him and i hope we are always together. Actually if i ever lost himi would actually prolly killmyself.I would be crushed. Well gotta do english Bye Beautifuls! xoxo Jessica xoxo

Y isn't any one helping me with my problems. I have posted like 25 comments but no one wants to help me with my problems! hahaha! JP ! but i am gettin kinda lonely!

xoxo Jessica xoxo

Have u ever just been bored and u totally spacec out and u have like the most wonderful day dream ever! Well i had one of those in Biology when i was totally BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! Well ne ways so i was siitin in school bored and this totally hansom boy came and rescued me.( well actually i couldn't see his face it was like blurry) He took me away in his ferrari and we stopped on this totally high cliff and the sun was stetting and he whisered in my ear" Jessica u r my world and i never want to lose you Ever EVer EVEr EVER! Just getting louder and well i didn't hear what happened cuz woke up to miss reimers sayin No one Ever EVer EVEr EVER falls asleep in my class and she flipped so i didn't get to see my hansome guys face and i also din't get to see wat happened .For all i know that could have been my future husband and i didn't even see his face! DAMN BIOLOGY TEACHERS! hahahaha! xoxo Jessica xoxo

So basically my life is a living hell because............well 1. My dad just recently got out of prison and he had promised me and my sister that the first thing he was gonna do was come and see us............yea its been three weeks and he still hasen't even called or ne thing so yea im a lil pissed becuz ha says how he loves us and well hes a BIG FAT LIAR and i HATE him! 2.My parents and i are always fighting becuz i never do stuff around the house ans im always on the phone and i do thi and i do that and y can't u be more like ur older brother.and im SICK and TIRED of it. 3. My so-called friends are nice to my face and they make it sound all good but behind my back all they do is say s**t and they never invite me to ne thing and they always leave me out but im therefriend.WHAT THE f**k EVER! 4. My current boyfriend and i are always fighting cuz i hnag out with my ex boyfriend still, even tho we r just friends.And hes constantly sayin i don't want u talkin to kyle but he talks to his ex 5. My ex just told me he wanted me back so now everything is messed up. I just want ,my old life back when i was happy an shyper all the time and not depresses and wanting to cut myself . If ne one has ne suggestions at all plz just tell me. and i can help ne other ppl with there problems. Bye Beautifuls!