Hey Beautifuls,
Ok, i have a question for all the bloggers. What do u do when u wake up everyday dreading to go to school , becuz u know that when u get there all the people who say they are your friends are actually gonna talk shit about you, tell your boyfrienjd shit so he willbreak up with you, say shit about you when your righ there, knowing that ur listening.They always talk about me and i sent them a letter telling them that i was sorry for whatever i did and so they email me back saying" oh what the shit , you know exactly what you did, so don't even say sorry cuz u are always makin us feel bad and ur always starting the fights and ur the source of most of our drama." And i don't even know what i did to them, cuz they are sayin how i was sooooo bad, and im such a BITCH!!!! But watever. What should i do? I am so sick and tired of Palmer. Everyone is bein gay. I actualy thought that everyone was gonna start bein nice but i guess i was wrong.For example: I am singing a solo at the winter concert and i was practicing in chorus, and I started singing, and the girls were like" OMG, shes really good at singing and so i hesitantly said THANX, and then i went home and called my boyfriend like usual. And well this is where it all starts, we were all good until he started sayin that my so called friends told him on msn that i cheated on him with dustin er justin er alan idik what name they used but anyways, and i guess we got itno it in the back of his car. YEAH! OMG RIGHT? And so i flipped. I am so sick of all the girls in my class and i can't wait until next year, cuz i possibly get to go to a different school, but idk, it all depends on if my year sux, or not. But yea, I am just really lookin for someone to talk to and if anyone can help me just let me know. I know i prolly just sound like some stupipd teenager who is all like" OMG MYLIFE SUX, THE WHOLE WORLD IS OUT TO GET ME! But im not tryin to sound like that, i just want my old life back, where i actually had friends who liked me, and i actually liked Palmer and got along with everyone and everything. I wish i had the perfect life. 10 things that would make my life perfect would prolly have to be.
1. True friends who can help me through all of my problems and we would always be happy with each other and we could make the most out of everything.
2. I would have the coolest mom, who let me stay out late but not to late cuz i want her to care but i don't want her to like transform me into a nun er..........something like that.
3.A perfect bf( well actually he is already all except the whole jealous thing) who treated me like a lady and never got jealous, and was always a gentlemmen.
4. To have the happiest family. We would always have a good time together and we would go to movies and play bored games and eat supper at the table.
5. The pefect dad, who actually tries to contact us becuz he wants to , not becuz he sends us money to make himself feel better. ( He has actually been in prison for the past five years, and he is out know but the only time he even came over was like 3 weeks after he got out of prison, and he only stayed for 30 mins.
6. I would have the coolest clothes, and i would totally be accesorized. I would always have the newest fashion, and the coolest shoes, MY FAVORITE BRAND OF SHOES ARE CONVERSE ALL STARS!!!!!!!
7.no one would talk about anyone else and we would all get along an no ones feelings would get hurt becuz of people who are talkin about them.
8.My family would actuallly want to do stuff with me and not like ignore me for a stupid computer game.
9.I had the coolest sister who wants to go to the mall with me, go shopping , eat fruit snacks and just be plane stupid together.
10.I WISH I HAD TH PERFETC LIFE! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IDK!!!! I am just gonna go before i like start cryin er............something well Bye Beautifuls!! xoxo Jessica xoxo
Hey dolly, sorry i took a while to reply, I don't check things as often as I should. Anyways, confidence isn't always there, it doesn't come easy. Trust me, I'm only confident on occassion, most of the time I don't like myself at all. You just need to not listen to people first of all, anyone who's not there for you all the time and any one who makes you feel bad about yourself isn't worth it and you don't need them in your life. sometimes it's hard to realize these things and to break off ties with people, but at times there are people you're better off without. Don't ever let anyone tell you you can't do something, if you want to be a rockstar, GO FOR YOUR DREAM! Don't let anyone tell you you can't do something because as long as you believe in yourself, you'll be able to do what you want and you'll go a long way.
As for those girls in your class, just laugh at them, if they say anything to you just say "don't be jealous because I'm better than you and you'll NEVER be as awesome as me" ;] thats the best way to deal with people!
As for the modeling, I started out because I have friends who are photographers and i originally started doing it as favors for them but grew to really love it. It's not too hard to find photographers, and I'm sure you could! just look around your area and things, there's tons of sites and things where you can find photographers to start up a portfolio for you, of course, always be really careful if you don't know the photographers and make sure not to go alone the first meeting.
As for the pretty thing, don't ever think you're not pretty enough, because despite what the magazines or the guys or the girls or anyone says, as long as you are you, you're BEAUTIFUL. Good luck with everything darling and I hope I helped you out some!
